this is me getting stronger...

last time being ditched. youre done. have fun with your fake friends.

been moved to the backburner and it feels like shit.
i really am happy for you, but i wont be waiting around for long.
you couldn't make time for me so stop pretending to care.


yes, this is about you.

"yesterday was awesome...awesome awesome awesome x a million
i feel as if everything is going right...everything is fitting into place. im just waiting for that one person that can make it perfect...i hope he finds me soon... "


that was may 7th, 2005.  what happened may 6th? was that maddis partys?
anywayz i found my boy but can we make this summer top summer 05? plz. i sound like i was having a grand time!

i <3 livejournal archives.

Step one: go to imdb.com and look up ten of your favorite movies.
Step two: post three official imdb "plot keywords" for these ten picks.
Step three: have your friends guess the movie titles.



1 - cigarette smoking, waitress, wife
2 - group vomit, mouth to mouth resuscitation, team
3 - martial arts, basketball, bicycle.
4 - friendship between boys, decomposing body, eating contest
5 - child abuse (hahaha), knight, crystal ball
6 - sword, it was all a dream, self discovery
7 - cartoon reality crossover, nazi, part animation
8 - actor playing multiple roles, fat child, fat
9 - child, coming of age, spy
10 -daughter, school, melancholy
11 -punk, van, backstage

these are easy!

girls are evil.

bring back the nfg. seriously. so good.

for all these years i gave my heart to whom i thought were good people.
shame on me.
i just want to leave this stupid town.

This is a lesson in letting your guard down.
Sometimes open arms are an invitation for disaster.
So next time .
I'll trust my fucking instincts.
Next time you come around,
all you will get are cold stares
& cold shoulders.
I'll be crouching with my fists clenched in the comer.
I can only hang on so tight for so long.
I'm letting you go.
I will be just fine on my - own.
You can't come in.
I'm leaving you out in the cold
because there's no room
left in my heart
for fakes like you.
I can only hang on so tight for so long.
I'm letting you go.
I will be just fine on my - own.
You can't come in.
I'm leaving you out in the cold
because there's no room
left in my heart
for fakes like you.
for fakes like you.
for fakes like you. 

so apparently its: "OmGz LeTs MaKE tHiS THe CRaZieSt WeEkENd EvER cAUSe ALLy, NiCk, AnD NicK aRe GoinG HOmE"
yeah...thats cool i guess. whatevs.
i dont really care because im way too excited to go home.
kids are starting to get to me anywayz.

ugh.
last night was the worst night ever.

opening my mouth when i shouldnt of?
crawling on the floor?
trying to jump in front of the bus?
profusely punching my boyfriend in the face?

im sorry to everyone that had to deal with me last night.
im embarrassed.

i guess im not mature enough yet for happy hour at 4pm.

blah blah blah.
i had class this morning at 9 and my 10 is cancelled. 
i want to go back to sleep but i cant get into this habit.

i think mikey williams moved into the next room down from me...
cause it says mikey williams on the door.
...and i think he's rooming with my r.a.
that sucks.

i need to talk to a certain person 
but i think i'll wait until tonight...
when im drunk.

kids actin' stupid yo!

whoa, summer '05 much?



minus a couple mucho important people, of course.

"It's just like me to let me destroy myself."

life,


needed: best friend


love,
teen angst.

what a night.



meh.

POST THREE PICTURES OF PEOPLE YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX WHO ARE ALIVE:





POST ONE PICTURE OF SOMONE YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX WHO IS DEAD:



POST THREE PICTURES OF PEOPLE YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE OF THE SAME SEX:





POST ONE PICTURE OF SOMEONE FROM THE SAME SEX YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE WHO IS DEAD:



POST THREE PICTURES OF THINGS YOU HATE:





POST THREE PICTURES OF THINGS YOU LOVE:






sorry for being too lazy to make a cut.

look what you did to us.

and by us...that doesnt include you. you are not us. you were never us. you will never be us.

us is all i have. 

bite your tounge because i can rip you apart in ways you will never want to see my face again.

new years party is a definite.

theme? no theme?

Instructions: take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2006. That’s your year in review!

January:
"Don't ever leave me alone, not this evening,  I am cold and shivering without you near..."

February:
p-p-p-pictures... (multiply link)

March:
when all of a sudden friends dont speak to you anymore, and they get angry at every god damn thing you do...

April:
i hate livejournal.

May:
noche de sabado: fiesta a mi casa . no padres y hermanos.

June:
listen sweetie, no one likes a shit talker.

July:
i suck at lifeeeeee.

August:
(group picture at katierays party), you kids make me one happy gal.

September:
(mobile home pictures)

October:
have you ever had a thought that maybe i was the one who was always left out? 

November:
(picture of katie ray and me), i miss drunk faces with this girl...

December:
(picture of daryl palumbo) holy fucking shit. december 29th.



yeah!

holy fucking shit. december 29th.
x-tra pairs of underwears will be needed.